A signal arriving before the receiver was built.’ That’s the line I’ll be carrying. So much of what I once catalogued as restlessness or confusion, I’ve since come to suspect was just reception — knowing something true before I had the apparatus to hold it. What strikes me most is that you refuse the tidy resolution at the end. The line continues. Nothing gets solved. You just stop spending your energy on the silencing. That feels far more honest than transformation. Mine has been telling me, patiently and for years, that the thing I do in the margins is not a margin.
The feeling of being stuck isn't a sign that you aren't moving forward,it’s a sign that you’ve been carrying something with you that needs you to stop, turn around, and acknowledge it so you can fully move into the next phase.
A signal arriving before the receiver was built.’ That’s the line I’ll be carrying. So much of what I once catalogued as restlessness or confusion, I’ve since come to suspect was just reception — knowing something true before I had the apparatus to hold it. What strikes me most is that you refuse the tidy resolution at the end. The line continues. Nothing gets solved. You just stop spending your energy on the silencing. That feels far more honest than transformation. Mine has been telling me, patiently and for years, that the thing I do in the margins is not a margin.
The feeling of being stuck isn't a sign that you aren't moving forward,it’s a sign that you’ve been carrying something with you that needs you to stop, turn around, and acknowledge it so you can fully move into the next phase.
Ever felt this urge that you cheated death?
The feeling like in an alternate situation you met the wave, and now you can feel the effect.
I have that feeling right now, such an awesome read.
Thank you for this piece.